Thursday, January 31, 2008
just so you know, it does kind of suck big time when you're insulted or made a joke of every 5 mins for 12 straight hours daily through slightly more than 2 whole years by almost everyone for every little thing you do/don't do, say/don't say, know/don't know, are responsible for/can't do anything about.
I don't think I can help it if I crack after that schedule and getting home.
so why am I not yet immune to all of it?
perhaps I'll never get the chance to.
forget about proving myself.
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Wednesday, January 30, 2008
I feel like an incompetent nincompoop. no wonder people don't want to know me or talk to me. smart people. I should just melt back into the background.
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Friday, January 25, 2008
I know I'm a big joke in ACS for everything I say or do and I accept it. But please can we leave it at that?........it's sad enough as it is.
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Friday, January 11, 2008
leaving at 2am tonight for Kunming, Year 3 OEP. will land back in Singapore on 19th Jan, 0115 hours. cya'll
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Wednesday, January 09, 2008
today felt like the first REAL day of school. lots of laughter and silliness and slacking. during PE we had our height measurements. :O i grew 2cm in a week! i measured 173 last week and today it was 175. awesome! i'm finally growing again. my weight's decreased by 3kg since last year but I need to lose another 4kg. I'm sure we can accomplish that.
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Tuesday, January 08, 2008
okay so I 'sacrificed' buying The Chase and bought Aldous Huxley's - Brave New World Revisited. for the sake of two other people. (: not that I regret it. the other 2 books are great.
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http://www.theotherpages.org/quote-16.html
fabulous sarcastic quotes. my favourite type.
currently reading The World Is Flat by Thomas L. Friedman. deeply interesting economical book.
buying The Chase by Clive Cussler later this evening, I hope. Also getting a new violin after OEP, hopefully as well. Tried out Chopin's Nocturne in c minor op.48 no.1 sounds fantastic to me...
sat at home and feebly stirred the IHS research homework for 10 mins and just slacked around otherwise. man, theory of evolution: reasons for validity/invalidity from a million different perspectives. yeech.
I suppose everyone saw the front page of the main section and HOME section this morning *AHEM* if you haven't then what are you waiting for, go read about ACS(Independent). Join us next year, or the next one! ;D
OEP on saturday morning, YAWN. haha, man I wish there was MEP today, but it was a full holiday. oh well at least now I have hope of staying in the cricket cca. joy. My eloquent vocabulary is at a loss to decorate with descriptors, how I'm feeling right now. it's not a very interesting feeling, just lacklustre-ishly random. and bored. Aah tomorrow is an utterly boring Timetable day.
IB gets you thinking. All the time. of the past future and present. right now they are only fragile half-hearted thoughtful dreams, but one can only hope they will gain strength and assurance as time goes on. anything can happen.........can't it?
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Monday, January 07, 2008
once again i'm made to be come a no-lifer who sucks at everything so much he's always left out. and it may as well be permanent.
): ........why.........
I wonder if it's like, written down somewhere in the fine print of the contract of my life that I'm not allowed to succeed and become somebody in my school life. Because it tends to seem that way...
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Tuesday, January 01, 2008
well so i'm back from India very early this morning, 1st day of January, 2008. hurrah. whatever.
2007 was a waste of time to me, from where I have concluded several things for myself. so be it, then if that's how it is.
I'll change some of my habits, acquire some, keep some. I don't want to be who I am anymore. It just doesn't work. I know how I am supposed to be, and now I shall be that way. So long old friends and foes for a whole new Shil will be coming your way, with effect from tomorrow 2nd of January 2008.
It will hurt some of you and it will hurt me. But at the stage I've reached, the only way henceforth to go is up. and that's where I'm headed. To attain some things you have to give up others. I'm doing it this way.
No more long hours on the computer/MSN unless necessary, finish all my homework first when I get home and then some, practice hard for cricket, piano and violin, be the A1 student of countless yesteryears. I know I will have to sever, or at least fray a lot of friendships, because, it's just not right. not simply for me, but for you as well. When the time comes I'll explain myself to each one of you. For now, I just can't wait to return to my 2nd home, though it's cost me so much, ever so much.
It's not like there's anywhere else to turn to anymore.
3.16 Habakuk-2008 will shine like a city on a hilltop.
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