Thursday, July 31, 2008
may not be mentioning everything in this post.
seems as though my situation is reverting back to lower secondary. being considered some joke/loser everywhere, being shown attitude by people who don't have a right to even say anything to me, scapegoated, name-called, the lot.
only difference is, my marks are better than last years. oh joy.
do I actually have a real friend out there, or is everyone just a 'friend' or something lesser?
I do not believe an answer is required to the above question.
lost touch with some once-meaningful people. but can one consider someone still pertinently meaningful if you have no contact for a certain amount of time? it's as though your contacts have been shuffled, reduced and restricted. now the people who work best with me are those that don't really know who I am.
it's like i don't really know anyone any longer. everyone's just a hellogoodbye face.
isn't it shameful.
so i'm an acprefect. knew it'd happen, i am ruined in the eyes of others decisively for that.
to hell. i am what i am. a ruination still maintains a connection with something intangible. a pervading part of spacetime, is entwined into it. a timeless moment(no antithesis intended).
maybe if you care to observe me. you'd see a cheery, flippant clown of life.
maybe if you paused me and analyzed the frame, you'd see the pathetic breakdown that's actually present. and breakdown works both ways in this case.
i don't know when, where and how the last straw will fall.
for all I know, it has already fallen.
yes i am different again,and this time maybe there's no changing back.
groupwork now equates to work alone, other members just show face. and share the marks.
individually, share your resources with abandon, while others can't afford the time or money to invest in a stapler, correction tape, or foolscap pad.
bloody.
i don't want to visualize life as I see it in IB. yet it's irresistable.
the ever cheerful and undaunted centrepiece, now a mute starer in the corner of the classroom.
eating with other people in the SAC? forget it, let's have a bench to ourselves and leave him out. he's always been that way after all.
be approached, do not approach.
work alone. slog hard. persevere. be a workhorse.
life doesn't matter anymore, just what I do for myself in it.
what ever happened to those myths of 'considerate' , 'deep' and 'tactful' people? or are they simply called prefects these days. because not all of them can be aptly described like that.
trans council announced next week.
and here's to tomorrow, may it be exponentially grinding.
what's my name again?
the timelessness of the bermuda triangle. I wish to be there.
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Monday, July 28, 2008
there's a sizeable quantity of issues i need to address in some form, soon.
if not, i may crack.
you may have noticed i'm not exactly being myself for a couple of days.
well things are happening and i'm losing trust, hope and/or belief in some of the few things i even have anymore, to hold on to through this stage of life.
and this week is just there to be mean to me. i am occupied 16 hours each day up till Sunday, when i'm performing in our annual concert.
well, i find it hard to believe anyone really cares about that though. which is why i don't.believe.
if things don't go downhill too drastically after this, i may be able to post in proper detail next time.
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Sunday, July 27, 2008
aha, interesting. They've got the approval to implement IB now, or so one hears.
bring it on, yo
now's when we show what we really are.
go AC go AC go
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go AC go AC go.........
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Era-Ameno
Dori me interimo adapare dori me
Ameno ameno lantire lantiremo dori me
Ameno omenare imperavi ameno
Dimere dimere mantiro mantiremo ameno
Omenare imperavi emulari ameno
Omenare imperavi emulari ameno
Ameno ameno dore ameno dori me ameno dori me
Ameno dom dori me reo ameno dori me ameno dori me dori me am
Translating (found in Internet)
Take me to the inside absorb take me
Disclose disclose hidding hidding oneself take me
Disclose unperceived signs disclose
Tell me tell me war like spirit martyr disclose
Emulate unperceived signs disclose
Emulate unperceived signs disclose
Disclose disclose the silence disclose take me disclose take me
Disclose soldier take me away disclose take me disclose take me take me now
Translating (Cathia)
Lull me to sleep, hide me, keep me, lull me to sleep
Ameno Ameno, light, light me, lull me to sleep
Ameno the sign of kingdom Ameno
Tell me, tell me, cover by overcoat, cover me by overcoat, Ameno
Signs of kingdom, immunize me, Ameno
Signs of kingdom, immunize me, Ameno
Ameno, lull me to sleep...
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Saturday, July 26, 2008
laughing my way to the bank:
http://www.straitstimes.com/Free/Story/STIStory_259659.html
well two CAN play at that game, people. we'll show 'em the best is yet to be.
45 points, here we come.
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Monday, July 21, 2008
lol.
lol.
lol.
lol.
lol.
(and just to be annoying and not keep to trio or quintet formation like a majority of people on the WWW,)
lol.
I fail to recollect what I last posted about. Oh, my schedule for the next 3 or so weeks. It's been slightly adjusted as of late, but that is of little, if any importance.
BOB3 was hosted by acsindep prefectorial board, friday night. It was fantastic, really. I loved being on duty. The uncertainty intermittently lingering, the constant confusion, and seeing a lot of people in causal attire for the first time, not to mention being in the company of the prefects for frankly the whole day, till 12am.
And the shirt is cool too. :D luckily it's not white. but black. BLACK. whoo. Saturday FOA Rehearsal was fun as usual, i completely failed at sight-reading Mozart, but hey, it ain't easy.
did Physics PBL whole of sunday, and i'm really proud of what we managed to come up with. we'll show Daryl and his permanent crew that the new kids on the block are serious challengers now.
And then today, wore my previouslyun-touched blue kurta set to school, in light of it being racial harmony day. I noticed that indians tend to make up the majority of non-foreign students who wear ethnic clothing. Even amongst teachers. Well, I love my kurta but some people think I look like a joke. oh well nothing new there, guys. and girls.
Are we the only race around that's still proud of our heritage and tradition? Come on people, prove me wrong.
I have pessimistic forebodings of my life-to-be in the IB years. shall I start on that?...
maybe the next post.
maybe it will sound all-too-familiar....
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Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Today: MEP till 6 then CMath hw and BOB ticket orders
Tomorrow: FOA rehearsal till 5:30, then passing BOB tickets to a customer till 6:30-7, then PBL and whatever homework I get
Thursday: Bowling C Div Cheering till 530, then Chem report, possibly BOB rehearsal, 3pm-11pm
Friday: BOB duty 1930-2230 hours
Saturday: FOA Rehearsal, Piano Class, random program in the evening
21st july: Cricket till 7
22nd july: MEP + MEP Nat'l Concert till 9+
23rd july: FOA Rehearsal
24th july: cricket till 7
26th july: FOA rehearsal, piano class, possibly Drama FOA duty
1st august: FOA rehearsal, possibly Choir FOA duty, AC X-Country, Youth Mediation Forum
2nd august: FOA rehearsal, Band FOA performance
3rd august: FOA: ACPHIL performance, IHS research essay due
7th august: charity face, CIP@ macritchie
aw man....
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Saturday, July 12, 2008
Your result for The LONG Scientific Personality Test... You scored 45% I to E, 21% N to S, 24% F to T, and 37% J to P!
INFJ - the counselor
Your type is best summed up by the word "counselor", which belongs to the larger group of idealists. Only 2% of the population share your type. You are so empathic that you often know what others need before they know themselves. You are a complex person who can deal with complicated issues and people, almost prefer to, as you love problem solving. You can be something of an idealist or perfectionist, and should try to take yourself a little less seriously.
You are a supportive and insightful romantic partner, encouraging your mate to have dreams and work hard to make those dreams come true. Because you are so creative, you have a wealth of ideas to help them toward those goals. You need harmony so much that you are driven to resolve conflict quickly, as long as the terms don't violate your ethics. You feel the most appreciated when your partner admires your creativity, trusts your inspirations, and respects your values. It is also vitally important that your partner be open and emotionally available - in other words, that they be willing to share themselves completely.
Your group summary: idealists (NF)
Your type summary: INFJ
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Tuesday, July 08, 2008
frankly, I think I need to completely re-prioritize my life at this point. For all I know, the process has already subconciously begun.
Promising avenues, regretted paths, all will be seen in due course.
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Thursday, July 03, 2008
This week,out of nowhere, i've felt really alone. As though some realization has hit me, disappointing albeit true. and all those future projections feel so bleak now...
I'm gonna be there for you. I know you had to make a really heartbreaking choice back then, and now you've moved on. but one can never completely move on, and whoever you're looking at now, always makes you remember her.
you gave me one of the most pleasant surprises in my life today, you did. when you actually talked to me this morning on our way to the astro turf. I've always had the deepest respect for you as a student&person, but i'd figured people'd rather not talk to me when there's no one else around. but you said hi and you made conversation, and I learnt a lot more about you just in the space of 20 seconds. I would never have believed that could possibly happen,and kudos to you for showing me what a little politeness and friendship can do. wonders. I can only hope you'll live long, for everytime I see you now, I feel sad for you, and all the many people out there almost just like you. Live life joyfully, while you can. If i can, i will help you to my utmost ability, and then some.
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