..A World of Nonsense..

today(actually this was yesterday but i didn't finish the post.) on the MRT to City Hall, the whole time I was standing behind this teenage girl, who had all the attributes of the regular NSK. Long hair all over the face(wait there was a face?), tight long slutty shirt, almost non-existent tight shorts, paper thin in all the right areas, ample where it matters.

basically a wannabe sexy stylo who didn't really have to want to be.

so i was knocking myself out debating with myself about such people, how they feel about it versus how we feel about it.

unforgivably, I was expecting her attitude to be of that sort too.

by the way, she was with (whom i presume was) her younger sister, couldn't be more than 9 years old.

when I actually heard her speak. i felt so ashamed.

she spoke so friendlily, lovingly and most of all, polite/mature.
like,what, an scgs/rgs girl.
if i didn't know better i'd have thought she is actually from such a school(things do happen),
but then she pointed out clementi town sec to her companion and said she could see her classroom. oh, well.

yes i should say she was pretty, disregarding her attire.
and I was left feeling somewhat disappointed for her, thinking about what she could have done if she were in a school with more opportunities.

if only she didn't dress that way.lol.

it's probably the first time a stranger has caught my attention like that. congratulations?
maybe there's more to follow.

I don't think I know why, but 'Connaught Drive' is stuck in my head. no, not some title of a book or song or band or event, just the name of the road. o.O

Adi added to the nonsense at 6:09 AM

after these 3 whole years,
you've made me simply afraid to hear something good|nice|pleasant about me, such a rarity it has been.

Adi added to the nonsense at 5:16 AM

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Adi added to the nonsense at 5:02 AM

what does a composer feel,think,write.

when he's composing his last one?

does he make it rousingly joyous, like one of the middle variations in Rachmaninov's Variations on a theme of Chopin. ?

does he make it beautifully sad, like Alessandro Vitali's Chaconne in G minor?

both?

none?

hm.

the four continents.

Adi added to the nonsense at 12:54 AM

you know what?

I think it doesn't matter anymore.

you don't really care,

and I can always look elsewhere.

Adi added to the nonsense at 6:54 PM

i'm thinking about roughly 15 years later.

when i'll look back on these 12th-16th years and see all that i've missed out on.
see all that I could have achieved for the future.
see all that I could have capitalized on.
see you whom I could have made mine.

it won't matter. it never did.
and it won't be the same again, roughly 15 years later. just not quite the same.

Adi added to the nonsense at 6:16 AM

& there is an opportunity to take heart from learning that it's not just you.

Adi added to the nonsense at 4:47 AM

I am utterly, terribly, completely.

disheartened, disappointed, demoralized.

by you.

what for and why?

i think i should tear myself away from you. we'll see where we end up, what you lost, what I never had.

Adi added to the nonsense at 4:39 AM

by the way ah, I am not about to clarify misinterpretations of the previous post. In any way you'd care to think of.

Adi added to the nonsense at 4:19 AM

teens have issues about false confidence. lolserious.

what with officially hating noncomittal events such as exams or mathematics lessons.
emphasis on the complete dumbness of usage of the word in an enlarged font size there.
i'd love to see what truly official documentation anyone who says such things actually has. Yes, I would really love to. documents are official after all, at least. it's not as though hating it will distance it from you nor will it cause betterment to your performance related to it. you just get more support 'on your side' of the case against aforementioned exams or other unfairly deemed unnecessary evils of education. herd mentality. strength in numbers. Bleah.

-.-"

laughter is such an cheap social trick, it's wrong.

A:hi
B:hello
A: how's life
B: not bad hahahah
A: lol I see
B: haha yup
A: heh ok
A: hahahahaha lol actually mine too
B: lol really?

and so on.

i give you a grand |wtf?| please, without the irrelevent exuberance of humor, you'd get NOWHERE with conversation.
there's this one strip of the XKCD comic which really put a nail on this....nonsense.
i shall say that I am unable to locate it. it simply said that though communication lines in the present are incredibly perpetually busy, most of the communication that takes place is a useless "what's up?" that leads to a convo that barely lasts 5 lines.

being such a critic is fun.

nevermind that I am unpromising in hosting conversations. At least I don't resort to near-fits of laughter to cover it up.

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I understand if you love your CCA, school and similar.
but what the heck. is the point in saying / indicating YOUR batch [ within CCA, class, church,camp, whateveritmaybe] to be something extra compared to the others? what's more of a joke, every batch generally has done the same thing, so basically, compared to each other, each batch is completely, eye-catchingly different. what kind of unity of grouping is that.failwin.
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"wah if that really happens, I LAUGH ah"
after that, is it mandatory that I terrorize the above phrase in the same vein?
take that to the bank.

\can't resist\ SO WHAT IF YOU LAUGH!? *incredulous look*

Adi added to the nonsense at 5:45 AM