..A World of Nonsense..

maybe now I see.

it was all for them.

the pursuit of happyness. is not in reaching it.

it is in giving it.

that's what ACS is all about.

some of us are born to spend their life in service so that others can let live.

that's what I'm here for, world.

I would remember even after a thousand years.

I wonder, if there's still someone dearest to me?

suffering is nothing without the pain.

Adi added to the nonsense at 7:07 AM

letting go.

no I don't care anymore.

no I DON'T care anymore.

I don't believe myself, but I'm taking over myself now.

What I'm doing is something I have no alternative to, yet brings surging back all those waves of emotional pain.

10 years later, I'll be too miserable to remember anything clearly.

15 years later, I'll be on the streets/nowhere in this world.

how nice it'd be, just to turn up missing some day. some day.

Adi added to the nonsense at 7:25 AM

just.

no motivation anymore.

Adi added to the nonsense at 6:10 AM

I don't know what I just read.

but if it's to whom.

concerning what.

then.

thankyou. (:

it doesn't feel different any more.

is the magic gone?

I think that was the blow which i've been waiting for so long.

Adi added to the nonsense at 7:15 AM

"the misery that an ugly man feels in every conscious minute of love."

and I'm down with fever runnynose and cough. damned.

Adi added to the nonsense at 5:36 PM

"You have enemies? Good,
because it means that
at some point in your life,

you stood up for something."

Adi added to the nonsense at 6:27 AM

can I scream now?

how about now.

-no, no, NO!

-that's NOT what I meant.

-that's not what I'm saying!
-WAIT I MEANT -
-I'm sorry ): I didn't mean it that way!
-no oh dear I said that wrongly
-you misunderstood >< -I wasn't insinuating anything!

how many times, how many times, have I had to say these things.

I must stop talking. forever.

Everything comes out wrong. and untruthfully.

Can you just once and for all tell me bluntly that I am, and will always be nothing to you? It will end this tomfoolery of mine, and leave both of us better of.

Really, WHY do I even try anymore. I know it's never going to work.

It's good you're not talking to me. I don't and never did deserve it.

you shouldn't consider what I say at all. After all, who ever did, does or will?

I've been waiting to receive that final blow from you, world around me. When will it ever come? I'm already at my last shreds now, clinging desperately to everything I have. Which is nothing.

People ask why I always look down. look sad as well as stare at the ground. And, did you ever wonder why I can never look people in the eye?

Oh right. Who'd notice.

Adi added to the nonsense at 6:03 AM

New York was an awesome movie.

it means a lot, really. Kicks Slumdog Millionaire's butt anyday.

Now THIS is a real hindi movie.

I stand in full salute of the director(s). They had the strength to have a sad/unhappy ending, killing 2 out of the 3 hero(/ine)s. Like, who cares what the critics say? I think the movie was really good, and it's one of the few I'd probably bother to buy a VCD/DVD of.

'I have nothing left.' How often I have felt like that.

It seems now that though love is greater, more powerful than fear, there are some grievances, hurts, insults, injuries, injustices that can never be erased.

Don't brand me a terrorist, but I almost want to be like Sam(ir). And die in a similar emotional situation. Surrounded by no one on your side, betrayal and nothing left to live for.

But I am so; I'll never get that classy a situation or anywhere near as much importance.

Sorrow and Loss are such strong emotions.

Irreplaceability.

Adi added to the nonsense at 8:27 AM